When I entered this trials I did not in any way expect to win.
To start with, I aimed for 12-12 in phase 2. ended 15-9 (18-6 or something after deck review)
Then I just aimed to get to the final, nothing more.
Once at the final, I said to myself, if i can lose but win at least 3 games, a 3-5 loss I would see as an achievement. Getting to a deciding game was by a mile more than I expected from my first trials. If not for 2 top-deck pillars from dd in that game I could have won.
I did not see myself as quite ready. I saw myself as willing, I knew that if I did somehow win I would have the time, energy and will to do everything I could for my element. But you are right, I wasn't quite ready. Of this I am glad. dd is a great master for us, and I know that the only way I will become master is by beating him, and hopefully you and Blacksmith if you come back next Trials, as I hope you both will.
When I do, I will be ready. 8)