Okay, more clarification. Not used to needing to clarify things so completely in a debate, hence the lack of it thus far.
I made my beliefs known casually because they weren't the point of the topic. If I had intended for them to be the main focus I would have explained everything much more in depth and much more clearly. Better?
I don't personally feel I invented anything. As I said, my experiences were powerful, moving, and clear. The closest term I can think of on the spot is divine inspiration. Keep in mind I said that term is close, not 100% accurate. I have experiences spontaneous, distinct, well defined thoughts that did not feel like my own, or sound like my own in my mind, but they did feel true.
Part of my belief system is that the energy of the universe will give you nudges now and then, urges, intuitions, and having faith in those nudges heightens your awareness of them so they feel stronger and you notice more.
Sure, those nudges may rise out of my subconscious, part of my brain clicking along and putting things together and keeping track of things without my conscious awareness, but it doesn't feel like that. Feels more like my subconscious picking up nudges from the universe and feeding them to my conscious. So I go with it on faith. Why?
Well, probably because I feel better about the world when I have faith in the universe than I did when I was atheist. I take comfort in it in times of stress and weakness. Is that a bad thing? I don't think so. It doesn't affect my judgment. It doesn't incite fear of burning in Hell. It grants me hope and strength and it's fun to think about. Most importantly, it's not empty and foundation-less, so I'll never be crushed by anyone destroying my beliefs, because it's just not possible when they're flexible and built on experience.
Now, which question did I dodge? Cause I'm pretty sure I either just didn't answer clearly enough or missed it completely. I don't dodge questions.
Edit: Oh, and if you're wondering when I might explain my beliefs clearly and completely enough for any scrutiny to be considered remotely valid by me, it'll be a while. They are rather complex and I actually just started writing a series of discourses on them. Slow going, to be honest, translating the feelings into well-spoken words.