Oh Naenae
You are one of my fave people on the forum, and I have to personally thank you. You semi-hijacked my (most recent) welcome post about a year ago, telling me to join Brawl #4. Without that, I don't know if I would have ever got so involved in the community.
More than that though, our sense of humor is so close, i consider you one of my fave people on the forum in general.
You are intelligent, funny, charismatic, and deeply, deeply unfortunate to have found yourself in this position. I am so thankful nobody was hurt, but I mourn the loss of your livelihood.
Please, please, don't give up. Let the professionals around you do their jobs, but don't become reliant on them. Don't ever think yourself incapable of living your life again. You can do it, you can recover.
And when you do, let us know.
xxx JCJ