I have nothing to say.

[Arum]

    To tell you the truth, I have nothing to say. Or rather, I do. I love the community, the atmosphere, everything about EtCG. This is my heaven. Every day, or nearly every day, I would come on, to seek refuge, to be myself when I couldn't in the real world. In the real world, people thought I was strange. All because of hearing loss. A device just to help me hear better. I wouldn't play with others because I had my books to read. I still do, but now I make an effort to play. Some people don't like me, because I get high scores on my tests. Some people tease me. A nerd, a geek, even some ruder names just because I enjoy math and science. At last, here, I had a place where I could be free of those things. Free of the insults, free of the bullying, free of my burden. And then, I find, this isn't my heaven anymore. It's just the same as the real world. Nowhere is actually safe for me, not even here. ddevans calls me a retard. That strikes me hard, because I know I am smart. Not just at my school, not just about mundane things like that. I know what people think of me. I am annoying. I am immature. I am a spammer, or close to one in the chat. Yes, and? That is me. You can ask me to slow down my chatting, you can ask me to mature up, and I will do it. People still want me banned. Just to be rid of me. To be rid of me, the nerd, the geek. Why? I know these things are a fact, because I've seen and heard them. I thought many of you were my friend, but...All I can see is a betrayal. This is me, and you don't want me here at all. I nearly left because of those things. I like this game too much for that to happen. But because of you guys, Vrt, Drake, ddevans, and many others, I nearly chose to leave. I now have nothing to say. Have fun using me as your target practice.

[ARTHANASIOS]

    To tell you the truth, I have nothing to say. Or rather, I do. I love the community, the atmosphere, everything about EtCG. This is my heaven. Every day, or nearly every day, I would come on, to seek refuge, to be myself when I couldn't in the real world. In the real world, people thought I was strange. All because of a lack of hearing loss. A device just to help me hear better. I wouldn't play with others because I had my books to read. I still do, but now I make an effort to play. Some people don't like me, because I get high scores on my tests. Some people tease me. A nerd, a geek, even some ruder names just because I enjoy math and science. At last, here, I had a place where I could be free of those things. Free of the insults, free of the bullying, free of my burden. And then, I find, this isn't my heaven anymore. It's just the same as the real world. Nowhere is actually safe for me, not even here. ddevans calls me a retard. That strikes me hard, because I know I am smart. Not just at my school, not just about mundane things like that. I know what people think of me. I am annoying. I am immature. I am a spammer, or close to one in the chat. Yes, and? That is me. You can ask me to slow down my chatting, you can ask me to mature up, and I will do it. People still want me banned. Just to be rid of me. To be rid of me, the nerd, the geek. Why? I know these things are a fact, because I've seen and heard them. I thought many of you were my friend, but...All I can see is a betrayal. This is me, and you don't want me here at all. I nearly left because of those things. I like this game too much for that to happen. But because of you guys, Vrt, Drake, ddevans, and many others, I nearly chose to leave. I now have nothing to say. Have fun using me as your target practice.

 Dear Arum, I think you won't leave and you will come back. There always people who like or dislike us, who approve or disapprove us, who love or hate us, who are like us or different than us. I also was insulted by people, however I learnt to accept they're different than me and they think with a different way. However, all people are brothers & sisters and it is better to love and respect them even if they hate or disrespect us. It is not easy, but this is the right way. I also wasn't able to manage this for plenty of years, but fortunately now I have better self-control and I have granted immunity to insults or jokes that may hurt me.
 Like you said, people are the same both in the internet and in real-life and you have to deal with every kind of person. Just create a DR shield against those who try to hurt you unwillingy or on purpose, that's life...

[Vineroz]

First of all, hardly anyone here knows each other IRL. We are here for the same purpose: play Elements together. Have fun together. I think you must have heard of the quality of this community is actually one of the best out there. People are generally mature and nice, mainly because a lot of active members are older and thus having more life experience. Now when you think that people hates you or dislike you, why not look at it this way: why would they think like this? Why would people seem to dislike you? You mentioned a few names, and I am sure they are not friends specifically, or disliking you wouldn't make their life better. If a group of unrelated people think that you had a problem at the same time, you might actually really had a problem that you haven't realized. Maybe it is the way you talk, or maybe it is your reaction on certain  things, I don't know.

I suggest you to take a break in the community. Lurk more, and learn more about how we generally communicate. There were examples where newcomers pisses everyone off in the community, but then they learned and behaved and fixed the relationship. From what you have write, I am sure you can become on of those members. Hope it helps.

[Calindu]

Whatever...this is the wrong section.

[ddevans96]

I'm sorry, but it was your fault to act ridiculously under par for a significant amount of time. Not ours. Do not blame hyperactivity for it. It was a sudden moment of throwing maturity out of the window. You repeatedly talked about poop. You repeatedly said nonsensical things. You repeatedly refused to stop despite multiple people in chat making it very clear you needed to stop.

I know what it's like to be considered hyperactive, awkward, and treated poorly in real life and coming to places online and finding ways to enjoy my life. That's why I became active here. It has absolutely nothing to do with behavior that is far below average.

I have no regrets and no sympathy.

EDIT: As for use of the word retarded, I have actually never used it to mean unintelligent, nor mentally disabled. I have always used it to mean being illlogical. While this is not the correct usage according to many people, I use it only in a temporary sense, as I have found it to be a strengthener to arguments, since the word, being seen as offensive, is easy to pick out in an argument due to it's common usage.

My apology for using the word despite that seems to have been unseen when I said it in chat yesterday, and this is as close to one as I'm getting tonight,

[Arum]

I'm sorry, but it was your fault to act ridiculously under par for a significant amount of time. Not ours. Do not blame hyperactivity for it. It was a sudden moment of throwing maturity out of the window. You repeatedly talked about poop. You repeatedly said nonsensical things. You repeatedly refused to stop despite multiple people in chat making it very clear you needed to stop.

I know what it's like to be considered hyperactive, awkward, and treated poorly in real life and coming to places online and finding ways to enjoy my life. That's why I became active here. It has absolutely nothing to do with behavior that is far below average.

I have no regrets and no sympathy.

And from the way you've treated me, apparently, you'll never stop.

I talked about poop because coffee had a feces color, like drake said. You never told me to step up my maturity. I did slow down, but I didn't stop.

[Higurashi]

There's no forum discussion to this topic. This is a topic addressing specific people. You're free to do that in PM or in chat. Topic locked.