Hey guys,
you may have noticed me trying to make a useless effort at joining a fantastic event, and then promptly leave and not do anything, aka AFK. And that's exactly what I've been doing.
Growing up in an Asian family and for the good or for the worse, I've been seen as someone "smart". I'm not sure if that's the case, really - sure, I'll admit that I have somewhat of an affinity for the math and sciences, but overall my grades have been deteriorating. People ask me for homework help because I look smart and sometimes I understand a concept that no one else seems to get. That's perfectly fine, but with an abysmal GPA, my parents have been freaking out and have sat me down for many lengthy (and important) discussions.
I've always been much of a procrastinator, and an irresponsible one at that. Frequently I fail to turn in large reports or projects on time, because I always leave stuff to the last minute. Heck, I've put off writing this post about farewell for quite a while, and I truly apologize to the team that I'm letting down because of this, even though this could very possibly be a incoherent jumble of meaningless mutter from a high school student.
When I first came to the forums, I was intimidated. The people posting on the forums used acronyms I didn't understand, had stars representing how many posts they made, and medals under their belt - awards won from PvP competitions and who knows what else. Was it really ok to just step out and speak my opinion? There were admins, curators, competition organizers, and council members. They were [frightening]. They were [gods].
Since then I've tentatively made posts, and then eventually I got more comfortable. I've participated in one tournament (turns out I didn't read the rules carefully enough and got disqualified). I've been in Battle League and Championship League. I dove myself into forum games. I even made several cards. I looked everywhere for places to posts, anywhere to speak my voice if needed.
And I attached myself to the forum. It was a part of my life. I tried to contribute to the forum, give advice, and generally just be another nice person trying to help out. Even when I stopped grinding the game and just farmed the oracle everyday, I still tried to make cards or give people feedback on things.
I think people who have played the game and stayed around the forums for a long time can understand... I've seen people leave the forums and come back, people that have left the forums and have sadly never come back. They all have their reasons, but something that repeats itself is that the game becomes old. It becomes stale. And people lose their interest. Maybe it's because of the slow development. Maybe it's because of family related issues, or school related. Something bigger than some flash game on the internet. And as big as the EtG forums and the game itself is to me, I'm afraid I'm going to have to drop it down. Just because.
I'm not as prominent as some of the people that have said farewell, nor am I as well-known. I'm not as active, and I haven't contributed half as much. I hope at least some good came out of my time here, and I hope that I am appreciated, however small.
I know I'm not good at keeping things serious. Sometimes that helps lighten the mood in a dark room - other times it has made people think I'm immature and insensitive. Whatever the case, know that this time I'm deadly serious.
Goodbye.
Sorry to all those that were counting on me. I get pinged via email once in a while, and it's good to know that the community is still thriving somewhat. However, after today I will discontinue those alerts from the EtG forums. Once again, I'm sorry. I will have to withdraw from whatever I am involved in now, permanently.
This is my third post in the farewell section, and yet I still have a tiny sparkle of hope inside me that one day I will return. Maybe under a different circumstance...
Goodbye. I'll miss this place.
