I'm outside atm, will elaborate when I get home. This is not a joke though,
TLDR RL, mental instability leading to outbursts here, exams. I think for the sake of my own real life and my reputation here I should take a break rather than do anything stupid.
EDIT:
First, have a stock image:
So, this is long overdue. Ever since January I've been contemplating taking a break from these parts. I think back then it was just the feeling of my just being "there" and nothing else (as in, being thought of as "a person that appears on chat a lot" and that's about it) and I found it pointless to remain? I forgot... I have certain friendship issues IRL that revolve about that too.
Times have changed though. I think I realise how much people value me here. Well I may not by any extent have ever been considered a "Veteran" or something like that despite being here since 2011, but I guess I'm kinda-sorta notable enough for people to see me around here? Regardless, the primary reason for why I'm taking a hiatus (A Levels, probably the most important exam of my life) is still there. I honestly should have done this
way earlier, but like many others in these parts, I don't know... I got too attached into the community. Joining new stuff over and over again despite telling myself "you should stop and fix your life". So here we are I guess.
Like I said I have a lot of friendship issues in real life, and only recently have I finally getting the balls to tell people how I really feel about them. Stop being a doormat and starting caring about my own feelings rather than that of others. And basically trying to get rid of the cancerous people in my life who make my life feel like sh-t and yet I'm too nice and tolerate them rather than tell them to f-ck off. It's a painful process, but I'm learning, and yet it has taken a toll on myself... mentally.
So back to these forums. If you guys haven't noticed my chat attitude towards people and really just acting like an ass in general. Then I had three outbursts of anger within like... I don't know, 2 weeks? Sooner or later I'm going to make a huge outburst, a lot of flaming, and get banned. And no one wants that. I know that my behaviour as a whole has (hopefully, someone plz back me up) been better since when I first joined (Kuro, remember me being a salty little whiny little b-tch in F&H?), but I know what sh-t I'm capable of doing, and I want to stop that before it gets worse.
And thus, I pack my bags once and for all. I don't know when I'll be back honestly. At the earliest, December, when all my papers are over. But as for life itself, my own self-identity... that may take longer. After all I kinda lost motivation to do the things I did here (mostly forum games I think, and Kuro trust me this is NOT your fault) it would take some time to go out, do some new things, and come back when the spark/motivation returns to me (if it does return to me).
Anyway, remaining commitments (and I'm sorry to all involved that I'm ditching them halfway):Mafia: Asking to be MKed. Kinda a d-ck move but I'm not in any good shape to continue atm
RS3: I'll trust Sub with my moves. Maybe I'll advise him via PMs or alternative sources once in a while. Sorry again ><
Pipewerkz: @CO:
Assume I agree to all moves. Considering everyone is working together, my absence would be relatively minor compared to the competitive game. I'll trust you guys to win it and have fun.
Contact details (for those who somehow still miss me and want to chat with me):Reddit main (ZeUnreliableNarrator):
https://www.reddit.com/user/ZeUnreliableNarrator/Battle.net: CapsSquared#1167
Discord: DoubleCapitals#5906
Most other places: qwerter / DoubleCapitals / DiplomatDC / MinusTwo
/ GuestJoking / GuestKiddingFacebook: PM me via forums
Phone: You wish
So yeah. I guess peace out, have fun in the forums, don't miss me too much, and don't make too much trouble while I'm gone
(Edit: 3 outbursts, not 2)
